Do I get to start over, to try again? After everything I’ve done, do I even deserve another chance? Have I used up all my dreams, all my wishes? Is there one more try in me, to find happiness, to live out my perceived destiny, to achieve all my goals and wants?
Did I waste all my goodness and effort too early on unworthy pursuits? Did I willingly give all my love to undeserving entities? Did I dilute my ability to deserve my happy ending? My fulfilling journey?
In this video game we call life, did I use all my power ups, all my extra coins, all of my hearts, just to run out of chances?
Even after all my mistakes, all my bad judgements, after all my questionable decisions… is that what you judge me on? Is that how you think about me?
I can do nothing to change my past, but I can improve, I can work to be better. Shall I be held to transgressions God has already forgiven me for?
Do I get to find the person who will love me? All of me, flaws and then some, for who I am?
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